Too bad, hope you feel better. Hope you have someone to talk it out with. I'm not gonna suggest us. Sure if you want to talk to us we'll be here, but it's better to talk to someone that is there with you in person.
A touching image, I feel sad now knowing a fellow wolf is sad.
I think I know how you feel, where you express yourself with art (which is amazing art I may add 5/5 +fav), I express myself with sayings:
"It's hard knowing the fact everyone thinks you have a wonderful, fun, happy, and cheerful life, but when you are alone, you cry for no reason, you just cry and cry till you feel happy and then when you are happy you want to feel sad again and just keep crying" I think that's how you may feel, am I right?
Hopefully one of my sayings might cheer you up:
"We enjoy warmth because we have been cold. We appreciate light because we have been in darkness. By the same token, we can experience joy because we have known sadness"
but always remember that sadness flies away on the wings of time, long live wolves!