Merry Happy By Kate Nash
*Note* I'M BACK BITCHES!!!! This time I know where I want EVERYTHING to go, so be prepared. Now back to you irregularly scheduled program :P.
I'm always watching and if you are under the 18/21 click the back bottom until you are back on your home page then delete you history and forget this ever happened. And if you are straight this contains gay material with lots of cock sucking and gay anal sex so press the back button and forget this ever happened unless you like that then I question you sexuality. If you are a furry hater ..... WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING ON THIS SITE?!? Either way this contains gay furry relationships and sex. Remember I'm always watching 0.0 well except when I'm playing video games then don't bother me XD but seriously I'm always watching.
The door to my former lover's home opened and then I wondered to myself why am I here? What did I expect? It wasn't like anything I could say would dull the pain for either of us but I could try right? I know I love him but I can't leave my dad or my sister yet... they are all I have left. I just want to know if there could ever be at least a piece of him to keep in my life. I've felt only emptiness and loneliness since we broke up. What were only milliseconds felt like centuries as the door opened. As I looked at the figure of black and white my mind filled with dread as Mike stood in front of me dressed in a white shirt and black jeans.
"What the hell are you doing here?!?" His eyes were filled with anger unlike my saddened eyes.
"Is Haye....." I started but was interrupted.
"No and you have no right to ask. I may be a jerk to my brother but I could never hurt him as much as you did." I could tell even with all his anger he was holding back. He shout were probably growing more and more as he thought about it.
"I know and that's why I'm here. I just want to say I'm sor..." Once again I was interrupted but by not by Mike but by Hayate himself.
"You don't get to say sorry because you didn't even try to fight for me. I know you chose your family but you said you loved me and that means something." He pushed Mike aside, who looked dumbfounded, and I could see Jazz and Aurora in the living room. I was still processing what was going on but he kept on going. "To say you love someone means you would do anything for them, because you would do anything to protect them from pain and sorrow. It means you would die to stay with them until the end. I also understand that we haven't been together long but I've know you for a while and not once have you done something so cowardly. We had a connection and I was a strong emotional and physical one and you are willing to give it up without a fight."
"You think I didn't fight to stay?" I couldn't take the relentless attacks. "I begged to us to stay and I do love you but my family is all I have besides you. Their blood is my blood and they need me as much as I need them. I came to say I was sorry and hoped that we could have a chance to keep some kind of connection. I wish you could come with me but you wouldn't leave your family would you? If you ever change your mind you know how to reach me."
And I walked off leaving my only chain severed. If he wanted to reconnect it was his choice. I think we both had realized we did love each other but not as much as we thought we did. We would both get over this even if it was a slow process. I got in the car and we left and maybe we would return or maybe we wouldn't. There was also the chance that I would never speak to Hayate ever again.
Just like that he was gone and I just sitting looking out the window of my car replaying the moment. I felt a wave of comfort come over me and yet in that comfort was a bit of sadness. I felt like a horrible person that he was right I would do the same thing as him. I would have left for my family so why was I mad at him? The time had been slow before but now it was moving fast. I didn't even realize I had gotten out of the car and was walking to the gym with Aurora. I walked into the gym pushing those thought out of my head temporally. Mr. Sanders stood at the front of the rows of folding metal chairs and after twenty minutes he started to pair people and gave them a list of rooms to clean. About fifteen people were in there including me and I hoped I would be alone and it seemed like I would after every group was picked except for me. Aurora got paired with Darian, who is a smart, nice, and incredibly hot guy with a problem of following the wrong crowd. I was pretty sure she was fine and dandy with that choice but she still asked if I wanted for her to talk to Mr. Sanders and I declined. As we all started to move to go to our stations the doors opened and entered my nightmare, Zane Carter, dressed in skin tight black Sum 41 t-shirt and jeans with black and red headphones plugged into his ears. He unplugged one as Mr. Sanders started to talk.
"Ah Mr. Carter thanks for joining us you can pair up with Hayate." Really why couldn't you put me in a barrel of boiling oil while you're at it. "And before either of you can start to protest it's final."
With that he walked off and I went to the first area, building 2 second floor, and I didn't feel like fighting so I ignored Zane completely as he threw random insults. We entered the first room and he sat down at a desk and started to text.
"You're not going to help at all are you?" He just looked at me with an angry look.
"What are you going to do sick your prince on me. Ohh wait he left you at the ball didn't he?" I was too tired to be angry.
"Would you just grow up ignorance isn't appealing." He just growled and returned to his phone. It was fine with me as long as he was quiet. I cleaned to room quickly and when Zane noticed I was leaving he got up and moved to next room and he said he was going to the next room. Like the last room I quickly finished and started to move one when I stopped in front of the room Zane was supposed to be in. I look through the small window and saw nobody. I walked in and looked around the room. It was clean except for a phone, Zane's phone, and the curiosity started to talk hold. I picked up the IPhone and slid the lock. There was no password and the note app was open. I started to read and what I read surprised me.
I hide the real me away behind this tough exterior for some unknown reason. I wear a mask of stupidity, ignorance, and hat. For what though I have forgotten. I pushed everyone away and now I don't know what to say or what to do. I can't be nice or they will attack. They will sense the weakness. So I hide and keep quiet about the real me, the straight A student and ga.....
Then it just ended and the curiosity only grew as I wondered what the last part was. Then I locked the phone and set it back where it was and started to leave the room. I looked back at the phone. I went back and unlocked the phone and entered the internet. If I look at his history I might be able to figure out what type of person he is and maybe what he was going to put. As I looked at the history I understood what the last word was.... Gay. There were links to Google images for gay sex, gay wolves, and gay huskies. The piece started to fit into place; the homophobe cover, pushing people away, and even the reason to hate everyone. He was alone and scared. This was too much for me to handle and I left the room leaving the phone on the desk and I went to the other rooms and cleaned then hurried to clean the rooms. I even hid to avoid Zane when he can into the room a couple of times. I finished and hurried to building 4 and waited for Aurora. After twenty minutes she came out smiling. She grabbed my arm and she started to talk to fast for me to understand. I told her to slow down and she took a breath the started to talk.
"Darian asked me out!" She was smiling ear to ear. It was good to hear one of us had a good time. She went on about how cute he was and there date tonight. I hurried her to the car so we could leave. Then she gave me my keys and told me she was going to ride with Darian. I rushed to the parking lot and of course he had to be there. Sitting on the hood of my car was Zane. One of two things would happen. One he would try to attack me. Two he would proclaim his love for me. Either way my life sucked.
"You went through my phone didn't you?" He didn't sound angry more like he was sad. "You know don't you?"
"Know what?" I just wanted to go home with no drama.
"Don't play dumb. Just say it I'm gay." The second scenario seemed more likely now. "Please don't tell anyone I just don't want to be..."
"What an outcast because you already are?" No point in being nice. "You're a jerk that's why nobody likes you, not because you're gay. Can I go home now?"
"Maybe I don't want to me mean." I just looked at his feet.
"Then don't be. It's that easy." It was at this point he grew angry.
"You think I haven't tried. Everyone made a big deal last time." I just rolled my eyes.
"Forget them do what you think is right." His anger died down. "Do what you want not what you think other want you to do."
"How?" Of course the one question with so many answers.
"That's for you to figure out not me." I tried to walk past him but he stepped in front of me. He was a little taller than me and much bigger but nothing I couldn't handle. He closed his eyes and leaned into me. I slapped him on his nose. "What the fuck was that."
"You said do what I wanted to do." He was rubbing his nose and then he sneezed. I giggled and he put a grumpy face. "And the wasn't funny."
"Ya well what you did wasn't much better. I'm not a slut. I just got out of a relationship and I got hurt. I don't need you to decide you think it would be OK to try to have sex with the first guy that finds out your gay." He just looked down and kicked a rock around.
"Sorry I wasn't thinking." That was surprising to hear from Zane of all people.
"Well if you know when to say you're sorry means you know how to be nice." He looked up and smiled. "So you're one the right track."
"Thanks." After that I left. God today just sucked. Well hopefully this means I have one less enemy to deal with because I can't handle much more.
The Show by Lenka