Personal stuff (non-relationship stuff for once)
My cat is 20 years old... She's incontinent, she's going deaf, she can't hold down much food, and she's going blind, she's missing seven teeth because they've rotted away and she won't clean herself anymore so her fur is all matted and ratty. She can't jump up very high, she can't push door open anymore... she's becoming helpless.
Putting her down will be a bit of mercy. She's led a great life and I know this is going to happen... but why does this choke me up so much?
Oh yeah. I haven't lived a single day in my life without her in it. She's older than me... She's family...
We're going to get her euthanized on Thursday... Friday I have a day off, which I'll need.
She's so annoying... but I adore her. I love her so much. And I don't want her to go but I know it's for the best.
I'm really worried about how I'll react to all this.
And for those that say we shouldn't put her down... Don't even bother commenting. I'll block you immediately.