The sixth chapter of Forbidden!
Forbidden Chapter 6 --
What Do I Do?
Matt heard the doorbell ring and startled a little, lowering his newspaper before turning to look in the general direction of the door. He sat the paper aside, and looked down at Sirrus, lying on the couch and on his lap.
The ottercoon smiled, "Sorry, boy: you're gonna' have to get up. Someone's at the door."
Sirrus grunted and purred, rolling off of his master and going right back to sleep.
Matt smiled again and petted his dragon a bit. Wondering who was at his door, he got up, wearing only a pair of old blue jeans, and planning on telling whoever this was to go away. He'd had enough visitors. He finally reached the door, barefoot and wondering how the rest of that story in the paper went, as he swung open the door.
A young, dark-furred wolf stood, leaning against one of the porch's columns and looking out across to a lake. He didn't hear Matt open the door.
"Yes? And you are...oh..." Matt cocked an eyebrow, "The wolf-boy who needed to work on his sarcasm: uhm...Jay...James or something like that. What are you here for?"
Jasyn grumbled and turned to look at Matt, but then quickly turned back away when he saw the ottercoon was shirtless, "It's Jasyn. Don't call me wolf-boy..."
"I'm sorry if I offended you. What would you have me call you exactly? Otter-boy? Kitten? I don't think either of those quite fit you, Jasyn..."
Jasyn let out a low growl in response, "Whatever...just..." He glanced at Matt again, "Come on, put on a shirt!"
"The day that I show up at your house unannounced, on one of your days off, will be the day I dress how you want me to..." Matt blinked, looked down, and let out a long sigh, "However, if you'd like to come inside, take a seat and a bit of something to drink, and tell me why you're here...I'd be happy to cover myself with a robe so I can find out what you want and get you out of my fur."
Jasyn sighed and nodded slowly, walking in and shutting the door.
Matt walked past him and toward his bedroom for a robe; "Take a seat in the living room near Sirrus, but don't wake him up. I'll be back soon."
Jasyn shook his head, still not believing that he was doing this, and took a seat next to the small dragon, waiting for Matt to get back.
Matt returned shortly, wearing his robe. He started to sit down by Jasyn on the couch, before remembering exactly who the wolf was, and, instead, moved to the recliner, to sit there. Jasyn sat nervously, just looking around the room and Matt yawned. The ottercoon wondered what about this could be more interesting than resting his day away with his pet and reading his paper.
"Would you like me to get you something to drink, Jasyn?"
Jasyn sighed again, "N-no. I'm fine...thanks..."
"Well then, why are you here exactly? Had I expected a visit from either of you, I would have expected to see the fox-boy."
"Alex." Jasyn corrected him, and then looked away, "Look...I don't like you...and you don't like me...but...but I need your help."
"I never said I didn't like you. I just didn't appreciate the type of attitude I was receiving from you, when I was in the middle of a crisis, which you had stumbled into." Matt leaned back in his chair as Jasyn turned to look at him again, "Now...how exactly can I help you?"
"Okay, look...you're a fa-" Jasyn caught himself, "Uhm...er...you're gay, right?"
Matt chuckled softly, "I've been called worse than a fagot Jasyn...and yes, I'm gay."
Jasyn looked down, almost ashamed, "...what do I do?"
"What do you mean?"
"Alex. About Alex..."
"I understood that much Jasyn. But it's not as simple a question as 'what do I do?'"
"But..." The wolf tried to find another way to phrase it, but couldn't, "But what do I do??"
Matt shook his head slightly, "I take it that you're straight? Completely?"
"Yeah...of course. Yes."
"Hmm...sound very assured..." Matt raised an eyebrow, "But that's neither here nor there. He's your friend, right?"
"How good of a friend? How long have you known each other?"
"He's my best friend. I've known him since...I think it was the fifth grade."
"Then why are you even here? If he's your best friend, then this shouldn't change that!"
"But he's in love with me!"
"Yes he is. But he's also still your friend, and you shouldn't be thinking about ending something like that over this."
"No! No...its not that. It's just...how do I respond to him saying that he loves me?"
"Oh...is that all?" Matt received a glare for that response, so he continued quickly before an argument could ensue, "First of all, running out to your truck and driving home is not how to respond to it!"
"Yeah. I know that was a mistake...but still..."
"Yes...it was a mistake, but don't get me wrong: I totally understand."
"I just...I can't look at him the same way..."
"Of course you can't, and you shouldn't, but you shouldn't look at him in a bad way either."
"Then..." Jasyn tensed up and shook, "Then...." He stood up quickly, "THEN WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO?!" The wolf screamed as tears formed at the corners of his eyes.
"Whoa, kid! Whoa." Matt jumped up too, not wanting to hug the wolf, but not wanting to just stay seated either, "Why don't go somewhere else before you wake up Sirrus. His questions will just confuse everything, okay?"
Jasyn simply looked down, wiping the tears from the corners of his eyes.
Matt reached over, stopping his paw just short of touching Jasyn's shoulder, "C...come with me, kid," The ottercoon walked, with the teenager in tow, out to a bench in the back yard where they sat down. "Have a seat Jasyn..."
Jasyn hesitated then sat beside Matt as he looked down at the ground, holding back from crying.
"Look, Jasyn: you're here at my house, nearly crying, and asking me for help. What do you think Alex is doing, right now? I can assure you, that if he's even been able to drag himself out of bed and isn't passed out, right now...that he's crying himself to death thinking that the person he loves...more importantly, his best friend hates him."
Jasyn shook his head, still looking down, "F-first off...I...I'm not crying. And second...h-he's a strong guy..."
"I swear to God, Jasyn." Matt huffed an exasperated sigh, "I saw the tears in your eyes. I saw you wipe them away! I can't help you if you won't even be honest with me! And you need to learn that it takes a bigger man to admit his emotions, than to pretend he doesn't have them at all."
Jasyn was hesitant, but gave the slightest of nods.
"And second of all..." Matt paused, shook his head, and looked away. The ottercoon knew exactly what Alex was doing, right now, and exactly where he was. After all, he'd shown up on his doorstep last night. But, for now, he would humor the wolf. "M...maybe you're right. Maybe he is strong. He's your friend. How would I know?" He looked back at the wolf again. "All I DO know is what a broken heart can do to a person, Jasyn...and it hurts a lot."
Jasyn just looked away not really wanting to speak.
"All I can really tell you...is that YOU are what he needs right now. Whether you're a friend or something more, really doesn't matter in the end, so long as he has YOU. If you care about his feelings in all of this, then you need to go be there for him...now." The ottercoon tilted his head, "And I know how some straight guys get about this: thinking all gay guys just want into their pants. I assure you that he won't DO anything to you, either. You've been at my house for a while now and I haven't done anything, right? And I don't barely care about you...let alone love you."
Jasyn looked at him, not saying anything, just looking and thinking over what Matt had said as tears filled his eyes.
Matt looked on for a long moment of silence, "Unless...of course, you're here for something else and not telling me..."
Jasyn's eyes widened a bit and he frowned, blinking his tears away, "N-No!" He stood up, "I...I can't believe I even came here..." He turned and began to walk to the house.
Matt jumped up, too, "Damn-it Jasyn! Who else are you going to ask for help!? How many other gay guys do you know who have ANY insight into any of this?" Matt paused as the wolf stopped, "More importantly than that...who do you usually go to when you have a problem, Jasyn? I was your age once, and I know you don't go to your parents! That's why you came here. Because, normally, when you have a problem...you go to Alex don't you? And now...who else do you have to turn to, but me, since you won't even talk to him?"
Jasyn had his paw on the door, "No one. I...I have no one, okay? Are you happy now?"
Matt's voice softened, feeling he was getting through to the wolf a little bit, "The only way you don't have anyone, is if you don't LET yourself: if you run away, like you did last night, and like you're trying to do right now..."
Jasyn turned around, tears running down his face, "Shut up! Ju-just shut the fuck up!!" He turned back around and stormed into the house toward the front door.
Matt snapped. He ran after Jasyn and stopped him, finally bold enough to touch the wolf, grabbing onto his arm.
"YOU!!" The ottercoon screamed at the teenager, nose to nose, in the first intimidating tone he'd mustered since Jasyn met him. "YOU are coming with me!!"
Matt jerked the Jasyn's arm and dragged the wolf down a nearby hallway, giving him no chance to argue, and no slack to fight away. At the hallway's end, the ottercoon threw open a door and pointed inside, drawing the wolf's eyes to a mass of huddled, red fur under the sheets of his guest bed.
Matt turned back Jasyn, lowering his voice. "You told his parents he was at your house last night! Where did you think he would go!? You're not the only one who feels alone, you selfish, little prick! He only has you to talk to, too!" The ottercoon drew them closer together, his muzzle almost against the wolf's cheek, "He cried his fucking eyes out last night over you...and then he just fell asleep on me. I had to carry him in here." Matt jerked on Jasyn's arm and pointed into the room again, "You look at him! Look at him!"
Jasyn turned, unable to bare the fact that he caused this, "A-Alex..."
"I don't give a feral's ass if you do or do not love him back Jasyn! But this isn't right and you know it. You both need each other right now, even if you can only be friends." Matt finally let go of Jasyn's arm, "Now here's what you're gonna do. I think the best thing for him to see when he wakes up is you. So you're gonna' go in there to your friend, and either wake him up, or sit with him 'til he gets up on his own. Got it?"
Jasyn just nodded blankly.
"And I'm not going to watch it." Matt turned and walked back down the hall towards the living room, "Damn fox made me cry enough for you two, last night." His voice trailed off as he turned the corner, "I don't even know these kids. Since when is it my job to..."
Jasyn walked slowly, his steps inching him into and across the room, to the bed. Gently, as to not wake his friend up, he sat, looking at Alex under the covers, the fox's face barely visible.
"Alex...I'm sorry...I'm so sorry..."
There we go! The soap opera, Forbidden, continues!!
F. R. Borealis
as Eric Matthew Cameron
Cecil B. North
and Jasyn Aiden Fuller
Cecil was a writer here as well, back in the Yiffstar days.
If you want to check out the stuff he wrote back then, go ahead and look him up.
His username on here is: Cecil_88
Aww...isn't that cute?
Matt pretends he doesn't, but he cares about these kids he just met for some reason.
So where to from here? Will things be better between Alex & Jasyn? Will they be friends again, or maybe something more? Could Matt be right about Jasyn hiding something?
Stay tuned to find out!
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See you for the next 50 chapters of Forbidden! ^_^
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