Greetings, just your friendly dragon here to reflect and write. Recently a lot of changes have taken place in my life. The first is that I have noticed I have mellowed out a lot. In times past I have worried about anything and everything. If something happened, it sent me all to pieces. Well, recently I've had several issues hit the fan and none of them have bothered me, at all. It is strange, yet welcomed. Yesterday I was sitting in class and we were studying the new testimant ( its a religious class ). Completely off subject one of the guys begins speaking of the sinfulness of "practicing homosexuals." Well, obviously I kept my mouth shut as i didn't want a scene in class. However it got me to thinking about some of the issues we face in today's society. This individual was easily four hundrad pounds. I could have easily stated that the body is gods temple and that he has defiled it. I could have stated that he was embracing glutany. There were several ways I could use the bible as a weapon right back at him, and then it hit me. These people hide behind bible verses and scripture because they are afraid. They fear us, because they do not understand us. They simply accept time honored traditions and stances of the church without thought or consideration to its place in life. Too often I find people's opinions are not there own. Rather they are cut and paste from partents, or churches, or other insititutions that seek to tell us how to think. As for myself, well everybody has a right to their own opinion no matter how ignorant it is.
You know, love often finds us when we don't look for it. I've always been very open about my life here, as I wish others to learn from my struggles. I've had several mates, all have ended in disaster. I have been trying to fit myself into their lives. However, mates should fit into each others lives. Nothing should be forced, it should be natural. One has to be a top, the other a bottom. Two tops cannot work, and two bottoms cannot work. Well recently I threw my paws up and said fuck it all. I was tired of searching, and being hurt and used. Well, a fur messaged me and we began talking. His name is Brasen and he's my new mate. It sorta just happened, honestly I never expected it. It would be easier to list where we differ, and I cannot think of anything off the top of my head. We are so much alike. He is honest, loving, and so kind to me. He's even made me speachless several times. Anybody who knows me can tell you how hard that is to do. In short, its been love at first text. What I have learned is this. We all have lessons we must learn in life. Each hurt teaches us something. We are as diamonds in the rock. First we must be chipped away to reveal the wonder inside.
Ever since my old life fell appart I have often sought to blame somebody for it. I lost everything, my college, my mates, my mind. But now I have more than I could have ever asked for, and I'm forced to examine the concept of blame. Yes they cheeted on me, all of them. But, what good does it do for me to hold hate in my heart except poisen me. They do not care if I hold blame for them, I've asked them. In the end forgiveness is more about us then the ones who did us wrong. Sometimes the worst thing we can do for those who wrong us is to forgive them. Because I promise you, they find it easier to deal with when we hate them. Hate hides emotions, makes it easier to deal with the pain. Hating is easy, forgiving requires strength and honor. So I ask you readers, is there anybody in your life today who has done you wrong? If so, why have you not forgiven them? If you want to be happy, then do as I have done. Seek to change your life for the better. Fill your life with positive energy and positive things WILL come.
Peace, Hope, Love